Monday, April 11, 2011

Oasis

Anybody can preach a sermon on a mount surrounded by daisies. But only one with a gut full of faith can live a sermon on a mountain of pain.
Max Lucado


I walked out of a desert today.
I've been hungry and hot and thirsty and hurting and lost and alone and sunburned.
Whole lotta dust.
Heat and glare.
Prickly cactus and scorpions and sharp rocks.

I wrote a song a long time ago, had not played it since forever, and thought a lot about it tonight.

I fight the hunger and the pain.
I wait in silence in the rain.
Look for shelter under angel wings.


Then I say "Leave me evil,"
and My Father's voice delivers me.


The desert becomes nothing,
but sand under my feet.


What was a desert became a beach, and I am wiggling painted toes in the sand.

Pathology results are in.
All clear.
No cancer.
Nothing pre-cancerous.
Nothing atypical.
No endometrial hyperplasia.
No hysterectomy.
Nothing but a heart-shaped uterus.

I'm done.
I am officially declaring I am done with cancer treatment.
Yes I will continue to be monitored.
Yes I continue to take Tamoxifen.
Yes I still need boobies.
Nevertheless,
and notwithstanding,
despite everything,
and because of everything,

I am done.

Hello.  My name is Writergirl.  I have had breast cancer.  I survived breast cancer treatment.  Nice to meet you.

The desert becomes nothing,
but sand under my feet.

8 comments:

benni said...

what wonderful news! i love your spirit, tenacity and more than anything, your willingness to share all you've been through.

Julie said...

WAY TO GO CHICKLET!!!!
I KNEW THIS DAY WOULD COME WITH YOU
STRONGER THAN EVER AND KICKING YOUR WAY THROUGH THE CANCER. I'M SO EXICTED ABOUT YOU COMING BACK TO WORK
NEXT WEEK. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH
WE ALL MISSED YOUR SMILING FACE AND
KITTY LAUGH. LOVE YOU, YULIE

Mimi said...

AMEN! What a beautiful dream come true. You are a survivor & I salute you.

Hugs & love,
Mimi

Anonymous said...

Whoooo hoooo. I am so dancing for you . . . in the desert . . . next to the beach . . . down the halls of the aweful surgical center.

I am dancing and smiling and overflowing with huge joy.

My sister is done. She is cancer free. She gets to pick what size her foobs are gonna be . . .and they will stand proud. My sister is done. . . . thank you, God for blessing us with more Deb Days.

Hugs,
Pat (Irish BC Warrior)

fosteringcare said...

Love it. Love you. Love knowing one day it will be over.
Xoxoxoxo
JM

Anonymous said...

Awesome news! The best!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! You did it. Love and hugs for you writergirl. Looking forward to the next chapter! Karen

kim said...

Can't believe I missed this post. Congratulations!!! Oh happy day!!! That is the BEST news!!!

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