Sunday, July 17, 2011

Relay for Life Appearance, Fairfield, CA

Happy Sunday.

I had the honor of speaking at a pre-Relay event for cancer survivors and their caregivers in Fairfield, CA this afternoon.  Prior to an event, I am so damn nervous, it's almost unbearable, and I think "I can't do this, why did I say yes, I can't do it."  Right up until I walk on the stage I am thinking this, and then I get there and an inner voice calms me and says "Go Girl, You can do this.  You will do this."

Here's the video, shot by Husband, and downloaded by my boy Robin.  Yes, of course there was crying involved, don'tcha know me by now?


I'm hoping that as I continue to move into survivorship, this will get easier for me.  I'm such a newbie, having just finished treatment early this year.  I look forward to when the strength that comes years after a diagnosis will replace the grief and tears I still feel now, new to this gig.

For now,
this is what it looks like,
easing into acceptance,
making the turn,
telling my story.

Several people approached me afterwards to hug me and thank me, like a lovely lady named Jan who saw me at the Cancer Survivors Day event.  She is now a big fan, and was over the moon to see me again today.  Thank you Jan.

An elderly woman and her Husband approached me; she had to take a moment to speak, working hard to control deep grief.

Thank you.
Thank you.  She whispered and hugged me.
We lost our daughter to breast cancer.
Thank you.

Then they hugged me together.
God Bless You.


God has blessed me so abundantly, and I am so humbled and moved by all the love I give with all my heart that is returning home to me.

I have found my calling.

p.s.

Thank you Kimberly for the lovely package sent my way, I absolutely loved all of it, and the journal with these words on the front "Love.  Dream.  Inspire."  She wrote 4 incredible quotes inside but these spoke deeply to me:

The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say.
Anais Nin

Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart.  William Wordsworth

Thank you Kimberly, for being such a kind and generous supporter of me and my blog, and my new role as an ACS Hero of Hope.

Happy Happy Sunday one and all.

Love the stuffin out of your life - thank you to my friend Pat (Irish BC Warrior) who affectionately said she "loved the stuffin" out of me.

1 comment:

Jill said...

I am so very proud of you.

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