Thursday, October 4, 2012

The Old Me - October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month


Self Portrait, just before starting chemo
Sometimes I miss her, that me, up there.

I miss my old body, even my not so perky Flopsy and Mopsy.  I miss stuffing them into a bra, I miss making sure nipples were both pointed in the right direction LOL, I miss what was once my body.

Sometimes I don't know this me.  This body is foreign, and feels foreign, and sometimes, I just don't feel like me.

Hearing the words you have cancer is hard, but moving forward as a survivor has its own challenges.

I have found that the more I look back, to the life that is gone, the more I suffer.

Lord help me everyday accept where I am today, accept my new body under construction, and remind me, when I need it, that all of this,

is better than the alternative.

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

Take good care of you.
Do what you need to do.

A mammogram may seem scary, but lemme tell you Honey,

it ain't nothin compared to Cancer Camp.

Just do it.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I miss the old me, too. Tears have swelled up in my eyes today. Such a deal that really never goes away. F & H

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