Sunday, June 27, 2010

Before You Get Carried Away

Hello from my bed.

This is where I lived most of this day today.

For future reference, before you start celebrating the last of your AC course, and before you toss your pink graduation cap in the air like Mary Tyler Moore on the streets of Minneapolis, you should wait till you've received all the gifts that only chemo can bring.

It's about 11:30 pm and I've been receiving them since early this morning.

I am tired and cranky and nauseated.  I have burping heartburn and I'm flashing.  I have a headache and my hands and feet feel so bloated they are tight.

I feel like a dog who keeps circling in his bed to find that comfy spot but I can't find it so I just keep circling.

This is what some days are like.

You just do your best, you get through them, and you don't hope for big things.

Just small things like tomorrow will be different.

This is what some days are like.


Boice55 said...

I SHOWED UP, I may be a little late but I have always been here and never really knew you like I wanted to. That is sad sis-in-law, lol because we are family. I have been reading your daily diary and I am AMAZED at your courage and ability to put all of this emotion into words. (something I have always had a hard time doing, saying what I feel and making it sound right) You are truely gifted and I envy your talent girl! Stay strong, I love Ya

kim said...

Even on your bad days, you still post. You are truly amazing!!! Just know that we are all out here...thinking of you, praying for you, and loving you for sharing all of this with us.

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