Saturday, September 18, 2010

Despite Everything, Because of Everything

It's a little after 2 a.m. and I still have a few hours of collateral wakefulness to go.

I'm not alone.

My Muse is here, lighting candles, feeding me Godiva chocolate pearls, whispering to me, telling me to talk to you.

Can you find a way to be grateful, despite everything?

This is what embraced me in these early morning hours; Grace landing on my fuzzy head like a butterfly.

This buffet that is my life.

You can't get here unless you go there.

I will trust that the going creates the getting.

See me?

I'm still going and despite everything, getting.

Getting the love I needed.
Getting the validation I needed.
Saying the words I needed to say.
Feeling the things I needed to feel.
Grieving what I needed to grieve.
Letting go of what pleaded to be let go of.

Fear is no match for Love.

I take one more step into it, sometimes crawl into it, sometimes shoved into it, sometimes bawling into it,

and Love waits there for me.

Love and grace and Debbieness.

I am precious.

I patted my own head tonight.  There there now.  It's ok.  It's ok baby.

Let me live this sacred life that is mine, this way.

Let me teach this to my children by example.

Love.  Love.  Love.

Let me be the poster girl for that.


Go back to sleep now.

Sleep peaceful, wake grateful, live your sacred life.

Love.  Love.  Love.
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