Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Menopausal Mermaid

It's been almost four months since my last period.  Can't say that I miss it.  Not one bit.  I gave Baby Bear an unopened bag of pads I still had.  Won't need those anymore.  Huge part of my life.  Gone.  Ok.  Bye.

I think I told you I started on Sam-e to help with the neuropathy.  Sam-e or S-adenosylmethionine is a naturally occurring molecule in your body that helps to "maintain healthy emotions and promote joint health" but depletes as you age.

Well, so far after a little over two weeks, it has not helped with the neuropathy at all, although my right eye twitching has been drastically reduced.

Wanna know what I do notice though?  All those menopausal mermaid symptoms I was having, like hot flashes and extreme mood swings like phantom Uber PMS, are gone.  I haven't had a flash in over a week, not one, and my emotions seem balanced.  Not to say I still don't have moments where I am ready to cry, mostly when I think about my upcoming surgery, but I think that's normal.  Generally speaking, although often melancholy right now, I feel peaceful and calm.  I think its the Sam-e.

I think it might be a great alternative for antidepressants.  I felt stinkin weird and groggy and drugged on Cymbalta.  Maybe it would have helped the neuropathy but I didn't care, I wanted off it.  I didn't like it one bit.  I don't notice any side effects with the Sam-e, other than good ones.

A client of Husband's, a cancer survivor, mentioned I should try L-glutamine for the neuropathy.   L-glutamine is an amino acid that promotes metabolism of protein and helps in your gut to boost your metabolism.  It is commonly used by body builders.  Well, I'm trying to build a body, right?

I bought some today.  I bought a powdered form of L-glutamine, and will start out mixing a teaspoon into some juice twice a day.  One teaspoon has 5 grams of L-glutamine.  The fellow at the vitamin shop told me you can take up to 30 grams per day.  He was very nice and printed out something for me outlining how L-glutamine helps chemo patients:

Alleviates numerous toxic side effects of chemo; enhances the repair of intestines damaged by chemo; helps repair the damage to the immune system caused by chemo; helps chemo shrink tumors; heals mouth sores often caused by chemo.

Dang, where has this stuff been all my life?  Hope it works.  I'll keep you posted.

I also bought some vegan protein powder, as I didn't want whey protein (made from dairy) or soy protein.

The health store guy said take the L-glutamine on its own first thing in the morning, and then you can follow it up with a protein smoothie half hour later.  I am adding both of these to my supplement routine and will let you know what happens.

As of today, there is mild neuropathy in the left foot, that comes and goes.  Sometimes the left foot feels almost normal.  The toes on the right foot, especially the second through fourth toe, are always completely numb, including the pad of that foot, the top of that foot, and going up into the right knee is a dull ache.

I still have some aches and pains in the bicep area of my right arm, where my PICC was.

Both hands are experiencing tightness and my grip feels stiff, or very little gripping power at all.  Opening a jar or putting keys in the door or fastening a bracelet can be a challenge right now.

I will report back on all of this one week from now, and each week to let you know what happens.

I am very proud to say that I am going to the pool 3 times a week.  How good it feels when my body glides into the water.  The water aerobics are hell on my feet, since most of the moves involve bouncing off the bottom of the pool.  I love the exercises we do with the big noodle, where we float and stretch with no feet touching at all.  I don't know why in hell it took till my 50's for me to get back in the water as much as I love it.  It feels so so good.  I am getting addicted to it.  Still not going into the hot tub and feel much better for it, although I miss all the gossip.

There are times when my body says "no no we are too tired to go to the pool" but then my brain speaks up and says "must have the pool, return to the water, must have the pool" and so I go.

I usually swim a bit before or after class.  I love floating on my back, only my face, boobs and toes out of the water.  The sound of my own breathing calms me.  I find it very meditative.

I feel like a mermaid.

As if I am returning to something.

Being in the pool again reminds me what it feels like to be freed from my body and just be spirit.

As if I am returning to something.



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