Saturday, August 20, 2011
This Above All
The only reason that we don't open our hearts and minds to other people is that they trigger confusion in us that we don't feel brave enough or sane enough to deal with. To the degree that we look clearly and compassionately at ourselves, we feel confident and fearless about looking into someone else's eyes. Pema Chodron
I often wonder if it is coincidence or kismet when I find a quote that says just what I needed to hear.
I always considered myself a compassionate person, but this quote is so true. I'll tell you, I see myself so differently now, clearly, compassionately, and it is changing how I move through the world. The more you get right with yourself, it is as if your heart opens to a level of forgiveness and understanding and acceptance you did not have before, and the greater your courage to be yourself.
I want to share with you a little video my son made of himself a few days ago, and actually posted on his Facebook wall! The video compilation was clips of himself from a few years ago. He's thirteen now and just started his Freshman year in high school.
First of all, this kid makes me laugh like nobody's business, but more than that, I was astounded that he had the guts to post this video, at this usually awkward and self conscious age of 13. I really got a kick out of that, and it made me feel good that he is so comfortable with himself, that he could be so transparent and fearless. I love that. I really do. I hope he always feels this way about himself, and I told him so.
Every now and then I go back and read one of my blog posts, especially the early ones, and although I'm not dancing around the living room or making silly faces, I'm surprised at my candor and transparency.
I don't know which was a greater catalyst for change in my life, a cancer diagnosis, or the writing of this blog, maybe both together.
I am no braver than I was, it was already there.
I am no stronger, it was already there.
I am no smarter or funnier or wiser.
The difference is
this has given me the opportunity
to get right
To see me as I am.
There is power in that.
Sometimes so powerful
it draws people to you.
Sometimes so powerful
it makes them run.
It makes them hide.
For most of my life, I was consumed with Becoming.
What moments of peace are found in Being.
I yam what I yam. Popeye